Writing Through Tears: Women, Grief and Hope in the Academy

Cecile Badenhorst; Heather McLeod; Abena Omenaa Boachie; Bahar Haghighat; Julia Halfyard; Haley Toll

doi:10.25071/1916-4467.40778

Auteurs-es

Cecile Badenhorst Memorial University https://orcid.org/0000-0001-8089-155X
Heather McLeod Memorial University
Abena Omenaa Boachie Memorial University
Bahar Haghighat Memorial University
Julia Halfyard Memorial University
Haley Toll Memorial University https://orcid.org/0000-0001-9683-471X

DOI :

https://doi.org/10.25071/1916-4467.40778

Mots-clés :

deuil, perte et espoir dans les universités; subjectivités académiques; identités académiques; néolibéralisme dans les universités; femmes dans les universités; pandémie COVID

Résumé

Le deuil fracasse le corps, s'effondrant d’un coup vers l'intérieur tout en se déchirant. Y a-t-il une place pour le deuil dans le corps académique néolibéral? Y a-t-il de la place pour les petites défaites quotidiennes comme pour les grands échecs qui changent la vie? Que faisons-nous lorsque notre environnement de travail fait taire notre peine? En tant qu'universitaires, nous sommes soumises à une culture de travail compétitive et sous pression, qui se traduit par une augmentation de stress, d'anxiété et d'épuisement. Nous avons également connu une pandémie mondiale dévastatrice. Cependant, le deuil et la perte sont des émotions rarement reconnues dans nos lieux de travail. Inspirées par Shelton et Sieben (2020), nous nous concentrons sur ce sujet et cette émotion, qui nous affectent de manières différentes. Nous plaçons le deuil (profonde tristesse causée par un décès ou une perte) au centre de nos réflexions comme un moyen de s'exprimer, de s'écarter de la concurrence et des discours de réussite. Nous utilisons la notion de narration de Hendry et al. (2018) en tant qu'être qui fait passer la méthodologie d'un mode de production à une manière d'être dans le monde. Nos récits montrent que la perte est ressentie communautairement, même si elle est vécue individuellement. Le deuil est important et en écrivant sur le deuil, nous résistons au savoir néolibéral, un acte qui nous donne espoir.

Bibliographies de l'auteur-e

Cecile Badenhorst, Memorial University

Cecile Badenhorst MA (UBC), PhD (Queen’s) is a Professor in the Adult Education/Post-Secondary program, Faculty of Education, at Memorial University. She conducts research in the areas of doctoral education, doctoral writing, graduate writing, thesis/publication writing pedagogies, academic literacies and faculty writing, and engages in arts-based and post-qualitative research methodologies.

Heather McLeod, Memorial University

Heather McLeod MA (SFU), PhD (UVIC) is a professor (arts education) in the Faculty of Education at Memorial University. She previously served as Associate Dean. She is Director of Publications, Canadian Society for Education Through Art (CSEA) and has won national, university-wide and faculty teaching and curriculum development awards.

Abena Omenaa Boachie, Memorial University

Abena Boachie is a doctoral candidate at Memorial University, specializing in Art Education. Abena holds a BA. in Communication Design and a MPhil. in Art Education. She is the managing editor for the Canadian Review of Art Education (peer reviewed). Her interest in art-based research includes visual arts, studio pedagogy and art hives.

Bahar Haghighat, Memorial University

Bahar Haghighat works as an international student advisor and intercultural trainer in the Internationalization Office with Memorial University. Bahar got her master’s from MUN in Education. For her research project, drawing on her own experience as a fat woman, she discussed the importance of including weight-based oppression in multicultural counselling education.

Julia Halfyard, Memorial University

Julia Halfyard is a PhD candidate in the Faculty of Education of Memorial University and also works in Student Affairs. As an established professional actor and singer, Julia’s passion for beauty and community building through music and singing influences her work, studies, community and home.

Haley Toll, Memorial University

Haley Toll, Ph.D. Cand., CCC, RCAT, RP (inactive) is the Editor in Chief of the Canadian Art Therapy Association Journal, Canadian Art Therapy Association Past President, and Ph.D. Candidate in the Faculty of Education at Memorial University of Newfoundland. She is a Joseph-Armand Bombardier Doctoral Award Recipient (2019).

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